Missing 'Superstition'

I just heard somebody across the street playing Stevie Wonder, and man do I miss listening to him. You see, I had two of his awesome cds on my laptop, but when it crashed earlier this year everything got wiped out. Thus, no more Stevie. I still have the actual physical copies of the cds-about 90 minutes north of where I'm currently residing in a box at my parents' house, but I don't get up there very much. And when I do, looking through my boxes of stuff I left behind is not high on the list of priorities. Usually I'm there for some family function or another and busy trying to make sure I spend as much time with my family as I possibly can. There are plenty of other cds, movies and books I left behind when I moved down here. Knowing that I was only going to have a small studio apartment and that space was going to be precious, I tried to minimize the amount of physical items I had as much as possible. And, in a way the loss of Stevie is just one more in a serious of things I miss about my 'old' life. I used to blast those songs loudly, early in the morning while drinking and writing, or after getting home late from a bar. I had a job which, at the time, bored me to tears, but I'd give anything to get back at the moment. I had stability in that job, a guaranteed paycheck every Friday, a routine of when to wake up, what time to catch the train, even the same guy handing me my amNewYork magazine as I walked out of the subway station every day. Now, as I'm freelancing and in a long term relationship, all that seems to have vanished. No more space all to myself. No more Stevie blaring through the speakers at 4am as I pull another all-nighter of writing before the boring desk job in the morning. No more eating really bad cooking and starving (might be a good thing) but most of all, the freedom to come home whenever I want from wherever I want. Now I have somebody waiting for me and always angry if I'm not home exactly when I said I would be. It feels like prison a lot of the time. A lot less time is spent on writing, and a lot more spent on 'quality time' with the least significant other. And to think, the whole time I was young and single I wanted a relationship and stability. I don't think I want it any more.

Anyways, on a far less depressing note, I've got a bunch of work up online that you should all check out. I'm at:

flyingsaucerproductions.wordpress.com, alanlawless.webs.com, scribd.com/alanlawless, myspace.com/flyingsaucerproductions and wemakezines.ning.com/profile/AlanLawless and vimeo.com/user3732873/videos So check it out and let your skull absorb the beauty-ness that lies there. And thanks in advance. I'm putting all this out there for you to enjoy. I hope it's working.